No one reads these things anyway so it's fine.

For real. Just be yourself and fucking get over your infinite insecurity. Literally no one cares. Your personality probably isn’t that off-putting if people continue to voluntarily speak to you.

I do too. Don't worry about it, there's at least someone out there that sees it and understands lmao

Gotta let the darkness shine.

Perfectly honest: I've said some things so cynical that I've caused kinda random people to be quite uncomfortable and I hate that.

What I noticed is that I really only remember nothimg but bad things when I am in a bad mood and only in a good mood I am even able to remember the good stuff. So yeah it's probably more helpful to bring yourself into a good mood right now then wear yourself down even more.

Yet, I do believe in depth psychology helping overcome childhood trauma. But it is not working in the way most people think by talking about it but by subconsciously reenacting it with the therapeut in a way we can solve it emotionally because the therapeut reacts in a better way than the primary caregiver did in the traumatic experience.

Yea, embrace it. Think about the most ridiculous things you’ve ever heard other people say. Oh, you can only remember maybe 5? 10? Realize that the one dumb thing you said is most likely not on the list.

And if it is? Congratulations you made an imprint on someone else. You’ll be remembered.

Forgetting is second only to acceptance, yeah. Left to my own devices I'll just fixate on the past, replaying the scenes and emotions over and over like that one Black Mirror episode.

I wish I didn't spend so much of my time in the past.

That's a problem for future me to deal with.

Single digits, lol