~~Ugly and low IQ~~ Severe Depression
I hope anon gets some help. It's hard to find your way out of that bleakness once you're there. I speak from experience, and it IS possible to get better. Self worth takes a lifetime to build if your parents didn't make the fundament for it in you. It's still worth working on it.
It's okay to not be the perfect adult, when you have barely learned what adulthood is. It's okay to be a late bloomer. It's okay to be uncertain. It's okay to do life at your own pace. But don't let the bleakness win. No matter how shite it gets, it won't last forever and you will find the way back from that pit. Even if it happens at such a slow and sluggish pace, that you don't even notice the improvements from day to day.
I wish I could give anon a hug. Been there too, buddy.