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It’s already imploding. Let’s just implode faster. Push the reset button!

Appreciate that. Counseling is my goal. Never happen, I’m a felon but dreams keep me straight

Edit: spelling

That’s my meme

I have an ex-wife. She didn’t like me drinking either. We were married for 5 years, together for 7. She ultimately ended up cheating and we got divorced.

Anyway, I was sober for the last 2 years of our relationship.

She didn’t cheat because of my drinking. It was just a way out but I can tell you this… her as my wife, I should have just accommodated her wishes when it came to drinking from the get go.

Ultimately I’m sober now and have been but that didn’t have anything to do with the divorce. I still got 50/50 custody because by the time the divorce happened I had been sober for two years and I quit cold turkey. Hardest thing I’ve done.

If you’re drinking that little, there are non alcoholic 0.0 beers you could lean on and maybe ease the two of you.

You still get the refreshing taste and she gets her peace of mind.

I know. I was married too and you have your things and she has your things. You just have to decide if the minimal amount you’re already drinking is worth the altercations.

It isn’t.

I still get urges sometimes but it’s only when life really hands it to me. I still tell myself that all it’s gonna do is speed up the day and put me further behind n accounting for my responsibilities. Which is true. I binge today, I’m out for 2-3 days recouping just to get a right headspace and even then, with where I’m at, probably a month.

My thinking gets to fucking out of whack after a day of drinking that I just can’t do it anymore if I want any control in my life.

Stay in control. If you can’t not have those few beers, even if you feel entitled and it’s not a big deal… resentment can lead to the drinking.

Just think about it. You’re entitled to your own decisions. It doesn’t sound like you’re on the same the level I ever was but it’s a battle I wouldn’t t fight with a spouse.

It’s a battle I would’ve fought before they became my spouse.

Sorry the answer wasn’t so concise. I was drunk everyday and learned to mask it. Some days I failed masking it or shorthanded how much I’d had to drink and it caught up with me.

Have had MANY incidents that would keep the layperson up at night for the rest of their lives. I’m just built different.

I’ve spent a collected 1 year in county jail. 6 months was the longest stretch. I’ve avoided prison but that 6 month stretch made me wish for prison.

I’ll say my boredom now (when I drank it helped speed up the day, I just wanted the day to be over) is constructive. I’m playing piano and guitar again. I’m writing.

Things still suck but I know they’ll suck whether sober or drunk so I just do sober. Saves me money

Edit: also saves me from being alone. I’m in the greatest relationship and I can’t jeopardize that. It means more to me than being numb