I agree with you about the physical strength. But wanting to get that bag, prove yourself, and put yourself in danger aren't biological traits. They're cultural values. Some species in nature have a lot of difference between males and females, and humans aren't one of them.

We associate those traits with men because of the history of our culture. We teach those values to boys because it's tradition, and it's what we expect of men. Boys grow up honing these traits, and become driven, reckless, ambitious men. It's a self-reinforcing cycle.

I ain't saying there's anything wrong with you having those values. I can see they make you happy. The problem is that society teaches kids to feel differently about these things based on their genitals, before they have a chance to decide who they are for themselves. For every guy like you, who turns out to like these "macho" values and flourish in them, there's another guy who doesn't fit the masculine ideal and has self esteem issues about it. And there's a gal who never gets a chance to figure out if she might be like you. So only the most driven, most exceptional women bother to try. I bet if we taught little girls to like danger and money and working to improve themselves, there would be a lot more average girls at your workplace, just like all those average guys. People who do... just okay, at the job. But who are happy.

I'm trans, and I grew up being told I was a boy. So I got that masculine programming that most boys get. Subtle, invisible stuff. We got told to care about competitive sports. We played with Hot Wheels and Tonka trucks. The TV shows marketed to us were about punching bad guys. We got told to pick a career based on how much money it would make us. The cis girls didn't get that so much.

There are parts of that I still resonate with and I'm glad I learned them as a kid. And there are parts that just completely are not Me. I wish the kids growing up today get a more equal childhood than we did. Let them ALL get exposed to all the things we value, and let them choose for themselves which things suit their souls.