i transitioned, my 14 year old self would cry from joy
this post was submitted on 13 May 2026
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honestly if I met my 14 year old self I'd give that kid a hug. they wouldn't accept it, but wow did they need it. turns out shit does, in fact, get better.
Yeah my response will be almost same just replace impress with depress they even rhyme.
Actually probably yes.
"What's your allowance?"
"Over $20/week"
"Wow, that's a lot of money"
I just want to hug him and tell him and anyone his age that "teenage/school years are the best years of your life" is a bold-faced LIE.
It gets better.
It gets WAY better.
“teenage/school years are the best years of your life”
I think it's a point in your life when you are old enough to do things you've never done before but young enough to still have plenty of room to take risks, fuck up, and come out better for it.
Not the apex of your career or the peak of your romance life or anything. But the moment when anything is possible and you shouldn't feel hedged in by obligations or fear of failure.
Leaving a small town, with small people, with small minds was a revelation
I was finally able to start becoming who I am, rather than what was needed to survive
That little fuckhead got me into this mess.
14 y/o me would be pretty damn jealous.
It's a good feeling
Yeah, 14 y/o me had a lot of shit to wade through before he could be me. Now hes just sad it will be a lot harder for future mes.
There are many reasons I chose not to have kids
I'm an incredibly lucky man
I've led a life that even I sometimes have to remind myself isn't a dream
I have loved deeply, been married, divorced, engaged again to the person who is my best friend
I have travelled, seen amazing things, lived in a few countries and experienced things I couldn't have imagined
I have studied at university, as well as getting a trade and progressing a very long with that
I have been wealthy, I own some stuff that the younger me would think is pretty cool, but I have few material possessions now because "stuff" doesn't really matter to me
I have lived in some of the biggest cities in the world, and now I enjoy peace and quiet in one of the most beautiful places in the world
The porn I create has tens of millions of views, I've done things that are wild, creative and on occasion, sexy
I'm the luckiest bastard on Earth
The porn I create has tens of millions of views, I've done things that are wild, creative and on occasion, sexy
Username checks out
I don't believe in false advertising
more people need to make pornos, it's a rite of passage
It's not something I recommend
I'll support people with it, but I don't advocate for it. It's something that can change your life for better or worse in an instant, and I have experienced both
I was lucky enough to thrive when I was close to being destroyed by somebody's malice. Few are so lucky.
Mine is performance art more than porn, but for those who enjoy it, they really like it and that's lovely for them
I just think it's funny
He'd probably give suicide a lot more consideration.
I'm playing video games all day every day. He would be amazed. It's adult me knows it's bad
Look, I'd like to see that little shit do better.
I mean...14 yo me would be pretty put off by my smoking fentanyl on the weekends to feel normal again cause methadone is a hassle / the bupe shot feels like being set on fire. The prescription drug addiction started at 15, so ehhh. 26 years later and I still love dope. Put it in my lung, veins, nose, mouth, I don't care. Just want to nod into the void.
Brotha have you ever thought about starting to cut back and see how it feels?
Man I really hope you can get this under control for yourself dude. The methadone might be a hassle but it can seriously be one of the best ways to get you out of the cycle. It does work and will make you not get sick which can then help you focus on living your life like other people that aren't using drugs.
That's the hardest part is transitioning back to what normal people do and are about and it takes awhile to actually feel that joy from those things but I swear dude it will happen after enough time and it will move you like nothing else has to be on that end of it and look back and see what you overcame. I don't know you, but I believe in you seriously. Believe in yourself because you can overcome this problem in your life if you put all your effort into it. I promise its worth it.
I would just encourage 14 year old me to knock my dad out until he figured out I wasn't his beast of burden to yell and scream at. The last time he laid hands on me was 14. At the time I didn't realize I physically intimidated him.
Absol-fucking-lutely they would. 14 year old me was dealing with some bullshit and would be ecstatic that we got through it and that things got better. Kudos to anyone who survived their teens and come out even mildly well adjusted, much less happy.
14 year old me would not even have the capacity to comprehend it.
Future was just some made up nonsense back then and absolutely every single adult was part of a hive mind connected back to my mother. In addition, people weren't really people, they were more like background noise who i had to be cautious of. The world didn't exist outside my field of view.
Holy moely! Did something change your mind/perspective or do you still see people like that?
Not really, still the same. Though don't get me wrong, as i can assume it gets interpreted as i treat people badly or abuse them in any way. I don't. I am not a sociopath or psychopath, that has been confirmed by a psychologist. I just completely lack the "connection" concept with people or some specific type of an attachment. ASD hits my social aspect the strongest.
For me people aren't really special, we're all just biological machines. Pretty much the same as a robot vacuum cleaner, just much more complex. I treat objects and people the with the same love and care, but that means that people melt into the same indistinguishable background noise. Like how much attention do you give to a random item on the street when walking past it? Just enough to not stumble into it and that's it.
Though I've never understood why it's supposed to be bad? It's not in any way harmful to others, maybe even positive as there's no judgment or any negative treatment towards them and once i have to actively engage with anyone. I remain cordial and often times even outright friendly and helpful.
I think a lot of people view strangers that way, as obstacles to be avoided. You're just more honest about it than most of us are.
It's pretty obvious to me when I walk down the street in my city that most people have that view of anyone they perceive to be of a lower social class.
That's an interesting observation. Though i can't say there's any difference between different social classes. Pretty much everyone will melt into background noise, unless I'm specifically looking for that specific individual.
I would kick 14 year old me in the ribs without a second thought. Kid was dumb af.
14 year old me knows that if he ever sees me he should start running. Unfortunately for him I can just run 14-year old me over with the family van. Then back up. Then drive again. Then backup again.
I think 14 year old me would be most disappointed that I'm no longer catholic. She'd probably be a mix of angry and excited that I'm trans. Shocked and confused when I explain to her that her parents' marriage is really really bad and she's going to need therapy for the way her dad treats her. Then she's going to be kinda pissed when I tell her that her dad is right about her needing to do better in school, it's just that he shouldn't be yelling at her until she self harms about it. She'll be proud I'm still friends with her friends and that I got out of Ohio to somewhere cool.
Oh then she's going to be incredibly disappointed I married someone with tattoos, especially since I'll call her a classist little shit about it, and that I never had kids.
14-year-old me would also be very disappointed that I'm no longer religious. She would be afraid for me because I have gay and trans friends.
Poor little Nicki. She was brainwashed and didn't know better. Fortunately, she got better after her first semester at university.
14 year old me would wonder how im still alive LOL
I'm not sure if I'd be proud or disappointed.
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By age 10, I'd already decided I was going to kill myself at 24, and I was looking forward to it, assuming I hadn't already died by then. By my 14th birthday, I was doing my annual countdown from 10.
I don't know if I'd be excited that I found things that made life worth living, or consider myself a failure for getting it wrong when I tried. Reflecting on that age, I don't think myself an idiot or anything, I just see a kid who tried their best with what they had, and had already given up on what seemed like an inescapable situation. I feel bad for 14 year-old me, and I'm not sure I'd be able to face that kid without feeling completely destroyed.
Why 24? If you don't mind asking. That's kinda odd number.
Like i chose 18, as im an adult by then and all the drug lectures at school painted a picture that I'd be offered drugs everywhere. So the plan was to OD at 18th birthday, seemed kinda nice way to go and a better alternative than become communal Fleshlight in the prison. Not that there was even any realistic threat of that happening, but thats in hindsight.
From a school assignment asking what I would be like at 25 years old. I decided that I never wanted to be 25.
That makes sense, thank you for sharing.
So, I don't know if there's some kind of psychological phenomenon at play here — but it sounds like something very similar to a circumstance my mom went through (albeit, the stakes were much different).
She used to smoke, and when she decided she wanted to have a kid (eventually me) she gave it up. What she told herself was that if she quit and wanted to start back up at 65, ok? Who cares, she's already old at that point so it's not like it's worse than having smoked for the previous 45 years.
Eventually never went back to them. She is actually repulsed by cigarettes now.
I think what I take from that is my mom didn't really give up cigarettes, at least not psychologically. In her mind she could go back at any time and there was no issue, she'd just go back to not smoking (and she didn't even do that, she just quit). I wonder if maybe a similar thing happened to you here? You gave yourself a goal so far ahead in the future that you also gave yourself ample time to grow — even if that goal was inevitably death. It's almost like sewerslide was your way of equalizing the playing field.
Idk, I could be wrong — I'm glad you didn't go through with it, though.
I accredit proper medication, scaring the shit out of my friends and family who I thought would have been happy if I were gone, and LARGELY that change in mindset that you're talking about.
Thank you for sharing that story
No shit.
I think i would be mostly proud of myself. I did a lot of things right, but recently i keep asking myself the question "would i want to spend time with myself"? Like if there was a perfect clone of myself, same mindset, same body, same everything, would i like them?
Most of my life, the answer has been "Yes". Now, i'm starting to respond to it with "no", actually not. I'm just not the kind of person myself that i myself would like to be around; ironically that's what makes me more popular among other people, it seems. So i've traded liking to be around myself to others liking to be around me. I still like myself, but i wouldn't wanna be with another version of myself, if that makes sense. Of some things, there better exist only one of it, if you know what i mean.
Look man, If I wanted to disappoint two people at once I'd take my parents out for dinner or find a couple of neurotypicals and have a threesome.
If dinner goes well enough with your parents, maybe you can kill two birds with one stone.
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