I'm in a similar space right now. Tired of being angry. Tired of feeling bad about things I said earlier when the people who it was said to will never feel bad about a thing in their lives. In a perfect world I would spend my days online looking at cat pictures, not despairing while these clowns dismantle women's rights, trans rights, gay rights, religious freedom, environmental protections, workers rights etc. and their idiot legion thinking it's all just wonderful.
It's a catch 22 for me because I cannot and will not keep quiet. I've spent my life fighting these fucking people and I'm not about to stop now that the fight is more important than ever. Even if it most likely won't amount to anything, considering that 50% of the world's population seems to have been replaced by pod people over the last decade.
So I dunno. I'm personally at odds with being at a point in my life where I'd like to calm down and focus on arts and good conversation and being a better person; while the state of the world calls for people with spines more than ever.
That is a great way of reframing it. And honestly it is a big help right now with the way I've been thinking lately. So thank you for taking the time to post this, seriously. I've got some thoughts that need rearranging now.