If I have such a static routine everything starts to feel pointless to me. I feel the urge to break out, and just yell fuck it all, and walk away from everything.
I really need quite an amount of time that is not planned, and where I do whatever my mind wants in that moment. Otherwise I feel like an explosion is building up inside me.
And in turn that destroys every fitness, healthy eating or similar routine I have tried to encompass.
It seems impossible to create a life for myself with healthy routines, that also feels like actually living.
Don't you feel trapped sometimes?
If I have such a static routine everything starts to feel pointless to me. I feel the urge to break out, and just yell fuck it all, and walk away from everything.
I really need quite an amount of time that is not planned, and where I do whatever my mind wants in that moment. Otherwise I feel like an explosion is building up inside me.
And in turn that destroys every fitness, healthy eating or similar routine I have tried to encompass.
It seems impossible to create a life for myself with healthy routines, that also feels like actually living.